I was feeling kind of lucky, like I’d finally cracked the code
I’d learned to turn a trick or two, I guess it must have showed
I should have seen it coming but was looking the other way
Now the tables have been turned, guess it’s the price I have to pay
I fucked up, I fucked up
I’d like to say I did my best but in the end I made a mess
I fucked up, I fucked up
I got in way too deep, my self-destruction’s now complete
I fucked up
I’m trying to minimise the damage, trying to keep it all hid
It wouldn’t be so bad if I remembered what I did
Once again I tell myself I’ll learn from my mistakes
But my lessons are piling up like a pile of broken plates
I fucked up, I fucked up
It should come as no surprise, it’s the story of my life
I fucked up, I fucked up
I got in way too deep, my self-destruction’s now complete
I fucked up
Everybody’s got a hard-luck story to tell
We’ve all known disappointment at the wishing well
Some people get what they want, the rest take what is left
I’m just stumbling through life one day to the next
You could say it doesn’t matter and try to ease my pain
Say you should have helped me out and try to share the blame
I could take it as a warning, see it as a sign
Say it won’t happen again but it’s just a matter of time
Cause I fucked up, I fucked up
I could say sorry, act contrite but I wouldn’t even get that right
I fucked up, I fucked up
I got in way too deep, my self-destruction’s now complete
I fucked up
No one ever remembers the good things that we do
They sift through all the scandal, say the worst of it is true
I took comfort in the knowledge that I’m not the only one
Till I opened up the newspaper and thought my God what have I done
I fucked up, I fucked up
They say this life is what you make, my life is just one big mistake
I fucked up, I fucked up
There’s no more turning back, it’s a fast and hard cold fact
I fucked up, I fucked up
I’m begging on my knees, would someone crucify me please
I fucked up, I fucked up
I got in way too deep, my self-destruction’s now complete
I fucked up
credits
from Small Crooked Smile,
track released April 28, 2013
Duncan Gillies: guitars, keyboard, vocals. Angel Joseph Gordon: bass. Yasmina and Fabienne Gillies: backing vocals.
My name is Duncan Gillies and I have written these songs. I have recorded them in a home studio set-up and have been helped
along the way by multi-instrumentalist Angel Joseph Gordon. The tracks were mixed and mastered by Nick Taylor at Sosol Sound and Lance Powell....more
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